In the grand scheme of things
your current weight doesn’t matter.
In the tiny scheme of things
you future weight doesn’t matter.
In the scheme of things
20 pounds more or less
is simply
not
important.
It’s a non issue.
It won’t make the world go round faster.
It won’t lead you to eternal happiness.
It won’t magically bring unicorns and rainbows into your life.
In the grand scheme of things
the proportion of your butt muscles
are – really – ridicilous.
In the tiny scheme of things
the fat on your arms
the way they wiggle
means nothing.
In the scheme of things
the cellulite on your belly
is an issue nobody cares about.
Even if you feel you’re drowning,
even if you feel that all hope is lost,
even if you feel that having visible abs is everything that you’ve always needed to live the life of your dreams,
even if you can’t imagine not having this horrendous struggle,
the fact is that it simply doesn’t matter.
But for a part of you, it does.
A part of you LOVES being in pain.
A part of you delights in this sick way of tearing yourself apart.
A part of you gets turned on by it.
Just as there’s a part of me that loves to struggle –
still –
in some areas of my life.
Thanks Coach for allowing me to see what I couldn’t see myself.
I love struggle.
I thrive on it.
I need it.
Even if most of my body, mind and soul don’t want to struggle,
don’t want to create the life that I don’t want to live,
there is a part of me that really, effin’ proud of the struggle she has created.
The same is true for the part that wants you to remian in battle with food and your body.
The same is true for the part of you that wants to stay small
be in pain
never fully live your life.
There’s a part that just doesn’t want you to be the most powerful version of yourself –
and that’s the part you have to embrace in order to heal
your
life.
Don’t push that part away from you.
Don’t look at her with disgust.
Don’t shame her into thinking that she’s done something wrong –
because she hasn’t
because she’s done everything right in the eyes of the part of you that wanted to have this reality.
Instead of pushing,
shaming,
hating,
hold her close to you.
Hold her tight.
Love her unconditionally and give her what she’s always yearned for.
Being close to you.
Being in communication with you.
Being respected by you.
And in the grand scheme of things
this love is all that really matters.
In the tiny scheme of things
this love is all you need to focus on.
In the scheme of things
this love is all you’ve got.
So, yeah, obsess over those 20 pounds,
hate on your fat,
count your calories
and struggle, struggle, struggle –
but stop shaming yourself for it.
Stop shaming yourself for doing what a part of you loves to do.
Instead, embrace the struggle,
love it
to let it go.
Because in the grand sheme of things,
your struggle isn’t real.
In the tiny scheme of things,
your love is more powerful.
In the scheme of things,
you are so much more than you are giving yourself credit for.
So, love, love, love your pain,
celebrate, celebrate, celebrate theh part of you that sabotages you all the freaking time,
heal, heal, heal your life.
And – never forget – hire me to get to where you want to go.
In the grand scheme of things,
you’ll regret the moments you didn’t live because you were scared of your own body.
In the tiny scheme of things,
you’ll ask yourself why you ever gave your scale the power over your life.
In the scheme of things,
you’ll never be proud of losing yourself in fear of gaining weight.
And yet, that part of you that loves to be in pain,
will be glad.
Love that part
to heal that part.
