You don’t have to be the way you’ve been
You don’t have to stay stuck in diet prison.
You don’t have to stay sad.
Mad.
Desperate.
You don’t have to be the way you’ve been
for years
decades
for your entire life.
You don’t have to stay small
defeated
joyless
internally dead.
You don’t have to be the way you’ve been
for others
this world
to stay safe.
You are allowed to change.
To evolve.
To go to new levels.
To reach new heights.
You don’t have to stay in fear
in pain
in hunger
in shame.
You are destined to go further
to heal what’s broken
to feel the pain
and transform into the person you have always been-
in your own mind
deep inside your heart.
You don’t have to be the way you’ve been
to the outside world.
To please
those who are scared
of your true power.
Your genius.
Your light within.
You don’t have to be the way you’ve been raised
treated
defined by others over time.
Evolution.
Transformation.
Change.
It’s in you.
It’s part of you.
It happens automatically –
if you would just get out of the way.
Your body isn’t the same it was yesterday.
Neither is your mind.
So why are you?
Why are you holding on to a version of yourself that’s in the past?
That’s no longer real?
Not even here anymore?
The energy it takes to hold on to what you have been
is far greater than the amount of energy it would take for you to be who you actually are.
I get it.
There’s fear.
But where is this fear coming from?
Do you even remember?
Do you know what this fear even is?
What it means?
When it started?
And where does it end?
Will it ever?
Will you allow yourself to grow?
Give yourself the permission to change?
Or are you going to force yourself to stand still –
as life passes you by?
This is what you’re doing when you’re holding on to a certain weight, to a certain body shape, to a certain size.
You’re deliberately putting a halt to the power you have inside.
You are deliberately sabotaging your life.
Every single day.
Every single moment.
You are sabotaging your life.
But you don’t have to do that.
There’s no force telling you to hold on.
Even if it feels this way.
Even if your fear is whispering in your ear,
yelling at you in your dreams.
Nothing’s going to happen.
Except for the ego dying a certain death.
Lean in.
Let go.
You still got it.
The spark is still in you.
I can see it all the way over here.
You still have the power.
You still have the joy.
It’s hidden, of course.
It’s covered up, for sure.
It’s scared, maybe.
But it’s there.
Never left.
You just didn’t want to see it.
Didn’t want to acknowledge that
you don’t have to be the way you’ve been.
Your body doesn’t have to be the way she’s been.
Your weight doesn’t have to be the way it’s been.
Your clothes don’t have to be the way they’ve been.
It’s a concept, never reality.
Stop fooling yourself.
Stop kidding yourself.
Stop bullshitting yourself
and finally admit that you’re just scared.
So scared.
Of what’s next.
Of what’s ahead.
Of who you are.
You’re powerful.
Gracious.
Gentle.
You’re magic.
Joyous.
Bliss.
You’re a teacher.
A philosopher.
A creator.
You’re everything.
And more.
Don’t you see it?
Can’t you tell?
After everything you’ve done?
Everything you’ve been through?
Felt?
Saw?
Heard?
Survived?
Can’t you feel it?
The power that is rising from deep inside –
slowly moving closer to the surface
and all you have to do is allow it to burst,
allow yourself to shine.
You’re colorful.
Decisive.
Delightful.
You’re you.
Can’t you tell?
Can’t you see?
Don’t you notice?
All that you are?
You’re the light of the world.
You are.
And you are more than you will ever know.
Or will?
Will you let go?
Will you surrender?
Will you leap?
Maybe?
Some day?
Some time?
No.
There’s no maybe.
No some day.
Never some time.
All there is is NOW.
This moment for you to shine.
So, leap –
I’m waiting.
Did you?
I didn’t feel it.
Did you?
I didn’t see it.
Did you?
Leap.
Trust yourself.
Leap.
Listen to yourself.
Leap.
Hear yourself.
And go with the beat of your heart.
Go with the knowing inside that will take you to places you haven’t been before.
Trust that you will eat what you want when you want.
That you will be free.
That you will love your body and feel sexy in your skin.
Trust.
And leap.
There’s nothing else to do really.
Nothing else to do in this life –
but becoming yourself.
Because if you don’t,
what will you think?
What will you tell yourself
before you take your last breath?
What excuses will you find?
Have you thought about that?
I think about it every day.
I think about the life I want to live.
The legacy I want to leave behind
and I want it to be one of love, joy, resilience and meaning.
What’s your purpose?
What’s your legacy?
Are you living your life as if it makes a difference?
Because it does.
It always has.
You are the difference.
You are the legacy.
You are the meaning.
You are the sunlight that we’ve all been waiting for.
You are the one you’ve always been –
but not the one you’ve shown the world.
You are the one you’ve always been –
the person you’re hiding deep inside.
You are the one you’ve always been –
the light that’s been waiting to shine.
Fat is just fat.
But you body is just a body.
And it’s so much more.
Food is just food.
But are just yourself.
And you are so much more.
Your weight is just your weight.
But love is always love.
Your outer beauty will fade –
what’s your legacy inside?
And why are you holding on to how you look outside?
You don’t have to be the one you’ve always been.
You are the one who will always be.
The question is: who are you at your core?
