Sometimes I wonder
what it’s really about
why we’re here
why we suffer
why we feel
why we grow or stay stuck.
Sometimes I wonder
why it’s messy
why it’s hard
why it’s easy
why it sucks
why it all seems upside down at times.
Sometimes I wonder
why we heal
why we crave
why we fight
why we do not want to be who we are.
Sometimes I wonder…
and then I wake up and I know –
deep down
in my core –
what it’s all about.
why we feel
why we heal
why we smile
why we cry
why we are here
To experience it all.
It’s the suffering
it’s the pain
it’s the laughter
it’s the joy
it’s the moment of sheer bliss
that make our lives.
It’s not the result.
It’s not the destination.
It’s not even the achievement of freedom –
it’s the surrendering to emotions that create this life we’re meant to live.
It’s the rollercoaster.
The agony.
The belly laughter.
The tears of gratitude.
Not the fleeting moments of willpower
Not the passing moments of pride
Not the belief that once we’ve overcome our struggles it’ll all feel done.
Nope, it’s this moment.
Exactly this very moment.
That makes your life.
Sometimes I wonder
I doubt
I walk in circles
Think myself into a corner
Fear myself into a bubble of desperation.
Sometimes I wonder
I make myself unhappy
I make myself sad
I make myself smaller than I am
believing that there must be more than THIS.
And then I wake up and I know –
deep in my core –
deep in my soul –
that THIS is all I need,
all I want,
all I desire.
If I didn’t
it wouldn’t be here.
I wake up –
from that deep slumber of my essential self-
and I feel the purpose of my life.
I see why my clients need to struggle
why they need to fight their appetite
why they need to keep themselves stuck.
I know.
I see.
I don’t have to wonder anymore.
And then at times the doubt comes rushing through my veins,
surprising me in the first moments of the morning glow,
no warning,
no chance for me to recoil and feel again.
So, I wonder
again.
I doubt
again.
I fear
again.
What if there’s more?
What if this isn’t it?
What if we suffer for no reason at all?
What if we’re all just lying to ourselves –
to make ourselves feel good –
to make the pain bearable-
the agony less suffocating-
the feelings less overwhelming?
What if we’re all just pretending-
and deep down we’re dying
slow deaths of sadness and grief?
But then I see
my clients rise above.
Then I hear
my son’s gleeful laughter,
his utter joy.
And then I notice
the sun shining through the clouds.
And I know –
once again.
That all of this is true.
That there is a reason.
That this is what is supposed to be.
For all of us to soar.
For all of us to learn how to fly.
With the pain at first
and then, slowly, step by step,
leaving it all behind –
not superficially
but with the deep healing that only coaching can provide.
Sometimes I wonder
and then I get coached.
Sometimes I wonder
and then I get support.
Sometimes I wonder
and then I coach.
Sometimes I wonder
and then I support.
And there’s no doubt left in my mind.
That we can all heal.
That we can all live the lives we’ve been dreaming of in those first moments of our lives.
That we are all here for a very specific reason that we must uncover to save this world.
To save the next generation.
To make it right by them.
Sometimes I wonder
and then I know that this really isn’t about us –
it’s about THEM.
it’s about THEIR future, THEIR LIVES.
Sometimes I wonder
if what I am doing enough
and then I remember that I am doing what I was born to do.
To support women in healing their destructive relationships with food and their bodies, so they can be workers of light, love and peace.
And then I am OK.
For now.
Until I wonder again –
go deeper
again.
Go further
again.
It’s good to doubt.
It’s wonderful to wonder.
It’s miraculous to question.
As it’ll always lead you to your purpose
to your next phase.
Make no mistake,
you, my love,
have a very clear purpose on this planet.
You have a very precise mission
and that mission, that purpose, that reason for you being here,
living, breathing, being,
is NOT about being thin.
It’s not about creating that perfect summer body.
It’s not about starving yourself only to binge.
It’s not about hating on yourself thinking that it’ll lead to love.
It’s not about your WEIGHT.
Your purpose is bigger
and in a way, it’s extremely selfish for you to keep this purpose, your light, from us, from the generation to come.
It’s selfish to keep yourself small.
It’s selfish to keep your body in pain.
For we need you.
We count on you.
We are waiting for you.
Sometimes I wonder
but most of the time, I know.
Why we’re here.
Why we fear.
Why we’re in pain.
Why we struggle with food and our bodies.
So we can rise above,
learn to love,
learn to grow into the person we were meant to be all along.
And then I smile,
knowing,
that we’ll be fine.
Because you’re here.
You’re ready to begin doing the work
of
your
freaking
life.
The work that’ll mark the turning point.
The day you’ll be talking about to your grandchildren with shining eyes and an open heart.
The work that’ll define the rest of your life.
Make no mistake,
it’s up to you to take the first step.
It’s up to you to stand your ground
and stop
wondering
what it’s all about.
Are you ready to finally STOP wishing, dreaming, yearning?
And START being, doing, healing?
It’s time to work with me then.
Reading these posts, being in this group, will only get you so far, but the REAL work, the REAL healing starts once you begin to work with me.
Book your coaching session with me while I’m on vacation because THAT IS WHERE I AM ON FIRE. The South of France is my soul home and when I’m there, my energy goes through the roof.
Are you ready to change or do you just want to continue to to wonder? It’s your choice, but I KNOW that you are born for more. I am counting on you.
Book your call.
meetme.so/Anne-SophieReinhardt
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