For most of my life, I have been asking myself what my true essence really was.
Why am I here? What is the reason of life? Who am I? What am I supposed to do? What is my true essence? Who is the real Anne-Sophie?
I was searching, searching, searching.
Fleeing into anorexia, exercise, bad, bad relationships and other crazy stuff.
I was running until I couldn’t run no more, until I was faced with the realization that to this day, I don’t know what my true essence is.
I don’t know where I belong. I have no clue what I’m supposed to do, who I’m going to be. Heck, I have no idea who I am at this moment in time.
Maybe I am love. Maybe I am freedom. Maybe I am a mom. Maybe I am nothing at all.
I don’t know.
But for the very first time in my life, I don’t mind not knowing.
I don’t mind admitting that I’m on a journey.
That I haven’t arrived.
I don’t mind because I’ve come to believe that finding your true essence is about the process. Part of your finding true essence is the unlayering of everything that isn’t you.
It’s not the destination, it truly is the day-to-day practice.
And over time, you’ll slowly inch closer to who you really are.
If you’re committed, if you keep at it, you’ll find your path, you’ll find your core. You may never arrive, but you sure as hell will live a life of discovery and curiosity.
And if you ask me, that’s more than enough.
More Posts about True Essence
Karen shares her beautiful thoughts here
Elizabeth writes about the essence of aromatherapy here
Deborah talks about her true essence here
Lila writes about the essence of an empress here
Let’s see if we can be successful this time. Unfortunately I lost the comment you made on my last blog – I de-activated the plugin I had set up to post directly to FB and lost the comments.
Anyway…. back to true essence. I keep floating in and out of who I am and what I’m here for but it’s fun experiencing things along the way. Everything is a stepping stone to where you’re meant to be. Still new to all of this but my link to my blog on True Essence.
I really enjoyed your post today, Deborah. You do sound full of compassion and love and I can’t wait to see what you create in this world.
Thanks Anne. I’m really enjoying this challenge. It’s getting me to really think about things.
I’m so happy to hear that, Deborah. Sometimes we need a little “push”, don’t we?
Anne…. it is a journey… everything about life is a journey. but I think that while you are on the journey, you also have part of your essence with you. the deepest part of your essence it is at your core… but there are parts still that you are with you…. that you can see. that make you “you”. I wrote my blog…… hopefully you can get to it… lol like I said, I am so not used this stuff!!
http://karenknapp69.wordpress.com
You know, when people used to tell me that it’s about the journey, I didn’t get it. I wanted to ARRIVE. I wanted to be successful, brave, independant NOW. I didn’t want to live the journey. But now I understand. It SO is about the journey. It’s about the day-to-day moments, the little things. That’s life and that’s how we explore who we truly are.
Just gotta get on the right train every once in a while 🙂
Hi Anne-Sophie, I know exactly what you mean – it can take us a lifetime to figure stuff out but if we follow our hearts then everything we do and every move we make takes us a little bit closer to our true selves. I talk about the true essence of one of my passions, aromatherapy, in today’s blog http://elizabethmilligan.com/2013/11/12/true-essence/
Elizabeth, I guess we always know exactly as much as we need to master our current challenges. I’m a firm believer in following the heart and I’ve definitely learned my lessons when I didn’t… 😉