When you embark on the journey to loving your body AS IT IS, it is important to acknowledge your fears.
And there are many, aren’t there?
As much as you want to stop struggling, you don’t want to be free. You don’t want to give up your judgments and you don’t want to give up your dream of being as skinny as possible.
In truth, you’re addicted to the struggle, the high of it, the low of it, the desperation of it and the hope in it.
The struggle gives you a lot: it gives you a purpose, a plan, a daily way of making it through your challenges. Your struggle is your focus, your life force, your everything.
And giving that up, leaning into uncertainty is scary as hell.
Fear, your struggle is safe. It’s what you’ve known for all of those years. It’s where you feel at home, comfortable and – even if it sucks so much – somehow strangely OK.
No matter how annoying your constant thoughts about calories, fat, protein and macros are, the prospect of change, the big jump into the unknown is often too big a risk to take.
What will happen if you trust?
What will happen if you let go?
How will you cope?
How will you feel?
How will your body respond?
There’s so much you don’t know that you’ll forever and ever opt for the monster that you already know: struggle, fear.
Here’s the thing though: your life has so much more potential. You have so much more potential than this.
There is so much you are not doing now because of your constant battle with food and your body.
There is so much you are missing out on because of your fear to let go.
There is so much you could experience, so much you will experience if only you took the leap of faith, a leap into freedom.
And you have what it takes to break free. You have what it takes to be in love with your body. You already have everything you need to be happy and at peace.
But first you need to acknowledge that you are deeply entangled in the struggle, that you somehow thrive on it, that you don’t want to let it go completely because it serves a purpose and the purpose is to live in fear, which in turn means to live in the safety that you’ve known forever.
Choose to live in the light today. Choose to let go of fear. Choose to jump in with both feet and to let go of the need to trust in fear. Allow yourself to be bigger than this, to experience more than this and you will.
All it takes is to acknowledge what is and then, step-by-step, let go, heal and trust.
I am here to support you on this journey.
