7 years ago today, I went into treatment for my eating disorders.
It was one of the scariest days of my life.
The night before, I’d had a major fight with my ex-husband and we didn’t even say goodbye before I left. I remember feeling so shaken, so full of terror over leaving my old life behind.
👉 I knew that something needed to change but I really didn’t want to change a thing. 👈
Instead, I wanted to continue being thin, being frail, being taken care of, being small.
I wanted to be the victim and for others to make my life happen for me.
I wanted to stay in prison, in pain, always close to the edge.
But I was also scared of what was going to happen if I continued to walk that fine line between life and death, between body-abuse and bingeing, between extreme highs and extreme lows.
I remember sitting on the bus to the treatment facility and thinking that either way, my life sucked. 😅
I almost didn’t go in.
I almost called in “sick”.
I almost chickened out.
But something within me wanted to be free, wanted to see what it was like to actually have a LIFE instead of fighting a useless battle.
And while this day 7 years ago wasn’t THE DAY that changed it all, it certainly was a milestone that brought me to where I am right now.
3 months in treatment didn’t heal me.
3 months in treatment didn’t even do anything for my weight.
3 months in treatment didn’t keep me from abusing exercise and laxatives.
But it paved the way for that “click” that happened months and months later.
If you’re on the brink of escaping diet prison, if you are thinking about letting go, if you are scared of jumping out of your oh so save pain, JUST DO IT.
You won’t be healed tomorrow.
You probably won’t feel “sane” for a while.
But you will have made that first OH SO important step towards a life that is worthy of YOU and a body that is in tune with your actual desires.
No need to put so much pressure on yourself to have it done yesterday.
No need to believe that you can’t do it if it’s not done now.
No need to doubt yourself when you’re still struggling 3 months down the road.
BUT there’s every need to make a decision, a firm, solid decision right now and then ACT on it every single day.
I’ve had more setbacks than I can count.
I’ve HATED my body more days than I didn’t – but then, I had hated my body when I was “thin” too.
I’ve cried more tears in that little room at the top of Lake Zurich than ever before, but I let it happen and I did what I could at that time.
And here’s the thing that I want to stress a million times and please know that this is MY opinion based on years of experience (this is not legal or medical advice!):
Traditional therapy did NOT help me sufficiently.
Yes, it kept me from going under.
Yes, it provided a safe space for me.
But it also kept me imprisoned.
It wasn’t until I had a coach that I was able to leap and break free.
If YOU are ready to LEAP FOR REAL, join the BODY-LOVE WELLNESS CIRCLES and get ready to transform your relationship to food and your body one day at a time.
This program is a program that actually works.
A program that is different from all the rest.
A program that helps to heal, let go and create a new life – without dieting and body-shame.
Are you ready? Are you excited? Are you restless?
GREAT. Let’s DO IT.
Join the Body-Love Wellness Circles now!
P.S. IF you have questions about payment plans, let me know. I will do everything I can to make sure you can join us – regardless of the investment.
